I haven’t blogged about pending events at all. But I think its okay? The whole world is currently facing a pandemic. I noticed that there are people who preach about improving or learning new skills during this quarantine. That being productive now (since most have a lot of time due to ECQ) is the best way to utilize the time. 

I think that’s toxic. ♥

I believe its okay to rest and do nothing. That forcing oneself to be productive is not healthy at all. Everyone has different ways to cope during this pandemic, and those preachers should shut the fuck up.

As for myself – thankfully I still have work. There are days where I dedicate my time sketching and painting. Whenever I’m in that mood, I produce a lot of work in one sitting. Then I scan, edit, and post them every other day in social media lol. But there are weeks that I don’t do anything productive at all! There was a week that I binged read a bunch of pending manga, there were also weeks that I used my 3DS again. I finally finished Bravely Default and Rune Factory 4 after all these years. I wanted to buy a Switch now, but then I noticed that they don’t have my favorite color yet. 

When will I blog again? I don’t know. Hopefully soon.

When you thought January’s finally over with all the craziness of 2020, the Covid19 finally reached our country.

There’s more personal posts recently here. Here’s my summary of January to Feb:

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After 2 months of preparation, our events in Komiket Megamall and StickerconMNL 2020 are done! Its finally time to rest, I hope? So sorry for not updating as often as I should. I can still see my pending blog post list on the first page. I will do them this March, hopefully! ♥

Yes, it’s that time of the year again.

A chaotic year.

Compared to my quiet 2018, 2019 was full of chaos.

When I look back to my posts for 2019 – it wasn’t a lot. I lost the motivation to write. And I got busy with work and real life. Originally, the blog’s main purpose is for me to document my adventures and to look back on happy memories. 

I attempted to create an art tambay group in our office. But after numerous setbacks (different work schedules, commitments, distractions, etc.) I just… stopped. I mean, I invite people and they show up but instead of you know – creating, there are distractions and I’m the only one left committed to the art tambay. What’s the point, then? I could do this anywhere else. So I stopped. But then new people were hired with similar interests, and here I am hoping – maybe this year I could invite people again.

In the first quarter of the year, I got busy working on new artworks for StickerCon. I decided that I need to create something new – aside from my flowers. Since I already did that last 2018, I decided to continue working on food illustration. Compared to my JanMaker sister with her insane amount of details in her food illustration – mine was the complete opposite. It was loose and chaotic, definitely me. I was ecstatic that everyone loved my food stickers, some of them were almost sold out. Weeks after that was my birthday, and then we went up north to participate in an arts and crafts fair.

There were so many lows this year that were so… stressful. I cut off people to protect myself and my mental state. I wish for karma to decide their fates, but sometimes I just wish for something else. I got stuck in an unfavorable situation, so I just left. I’m just happy and grateful that I have the support system that I need ♥.

In between the stressful situations, I also had some achievements: I got accepted in an Open call of artists for an exhibition; two of my renders were accepted as finalists in an international competition; had numerous events with friends; and was accepted to StickerCon 2020 and February Komiket 2020. 

There were a lot of things that I had no control over that I hated, but needed to accept. So for 2020, I wish for a quieter and steady year creating art at my own pace. I’m so tired.

It’s the time of the year again.

A quiet year.

Compared to my art-filled 2017, the year 2018 was a quiet one.